07 November 2015

Sounds I Love & Noises I Hate

the truth about sound is 
it can be noisy

it isn't always 
musical or soothing

often, it is
pushy 
intrusive
threatening

noise, any kind of noise
is pure emotion
and it never travels alone
it is always accompanied
by a 
memory

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sounds that
comfort
me

 keys in door
he's home, safe

cats purring 
contentment

baby giggles
happiness, joy

sewing machine
comfort, tradition, family

bird chirp & chatter
peace, tranquility

lawn mower 
calm, placid, home

choir music
hope

falling water
endurance 

dishwasher
order, control, completion

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everyday
noises that
disturb or sadden 
me
 
whistling
 revulsion, anger

slamming door 
fear, dread, panic

yelling, ranting
broken, hurt, damaged

humming
hostility, disgust, fake forgiveness 

static
irritation

loud footsteps
doom, anxiety, trapped

engine 'clicking'
irritation, defeat

whispers
paranoid, anxious, fearful

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the sounds of life
strung out along a musical staff 
held together by a treble clef
 often
overwhelm me
in the most beautiful way 
possible





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05 August 2015

nature's music

                                but interested

     
Nature's music is never over; her silences are pauses, not conclusions.  
 -  Mary Webb -


one the greatest things about nature
 is that it's free 
all you have to do
 is go outside
&
listen
~

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20 July 2015

fear

 about being afraid
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fear
it doesn't run my life
but
i avoid it at all costs
meaning
i usually don't go, do, eat, drink or partake in anything that frightens me
...
 i scare easily
i like safe
i like secure
i'm not much of a risk taker
i've always been 
a
lukewarm, not-too-deep, not-too-fast, watch out for snakes, don't open the door to strangers
kinda girl
but 
lately
yesterday, to be exact
i decided i was too old
to keep playing it safe
mine
has always been a 
life half lived
it is a great life, don't get me wrong
but i've heard  it said 
that
yep
i've always lived right on the edge
 of my comfy zone that is
never quite brave enough
to step
over it
but 
now
i'm ready 
to jump in head first
feet first
without over-thinking
questioning or second guessing
i'm just going to 
throw caution to the wind
and
do the impossible
i will
i think
maybe 
growing old
has made me braver
or maybe just a little
less cautious
either way
i'm ready
 to look fear in the eye
and stare it down
because 
the full force of
knowing 
that my climb up the hill
is done 
and i'm on the downward slope 
is suddenly
 very motivating

10 fears i want to overcome & face before i die:

  1. speak in public. because let's face it - speaking to a crowd of one in the bathroom mirror does not count
  2. eat Indian, Greek and Lebanese food without making a face, gagging or plugging my nose
  3. go on a vacation by myself for week - in another country
  4. learn the art of small talk - meet, smile & engage strangers in conversation 
  5. give stinky cheese a fighting chance
  6. learn to speak in botanical latin and talk to my plants in their native tongue
  7. overcome my fear of heights & ride in a hot air balloon
  8. revisit and walk all the way through the roman catacombs this time and not giving in to fear and just hitting the gift shop
  9. stroll across the capilano suspension bridge, eyes wide open (tightly gripping the railing is allowed)
  10. learn sleep at home, alone, in the dark, without a cache of makeshift weaponry beside me & the door barricaded by piles of dirty laundry and luggage
and
to my daughter
Katy
you are smart 
you are brave
and I love you
i wish you
godspeed
and
happy travels



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06 July 2015

smile

and sleepless
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i
spent the night
digging around in old files
reminiscing
and
rediscovering
SMILEBOX

i'd haven't play with it in forever
and i'd forgotten how much fun it is
and
i was too busy strolling down 
memory lane
to make a new one 
so i decided to repost
an old one from long ago

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i found this one
in the files
and it brought back
and it made me
smile
i still love it
nothing feeds the soul 
like great & wonderful memories

it was a beautiful day 
spent with
 wonderful friends 
at an absolutely amazing garden

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i simply love 
to take pictures
of the beautiful places 
i am lucky enough
to stroll through
and all the beautiful 
nature i meet
along the way

WALKABOUT NO. 57
09.20.12
Bloedel Reserve
Therese, Patti & Nancy 

Click to play this Smilebox slideshow

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05 July 2015

ten


some days
 life 
is a beautiful thing
and sometimes
it is not
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lately
I have been lost inside myself
my brain 
is so full of 
disorganized thoughts
it hurts
and these thoughts 
like
 a jumbled pile of hard rocks
teeter
on the very edge of 
who I am
 and when i'm in this state
i constantly berate and question myself
often, loudly
what is your purpose
what do you do
where does your value lie
what do you
contribute
produce
manage
accomplish 
 
because
in my world
i grew up believing
that my whole worth
my value
was measured 
in units of production 
(economic production)
and now
with my ability to produce revenue
all but gone
 i wonder
what is
the value of me 
where does my worth lie
and some days
i can just barely
tread water 
to keep from drowning

and as i struggle
i tell myself
take stock of your being
own up to who you are
take credit where credit is due
beat your own drum
pat yourself on the back
and admit to your failures
because
this is how
you will find
 hope 
and where
you will learn
that
you are worth
whatever you believe 
you are worth


10 accomplishments:

  1. raised two amazing women - i'm so proud to call them my daughters (nothing tops that)
  2. learned to forgive and let go
  3. said goodbye forever to a 15 year, pack-a-day smoking habit
  4. graduated university in a 'better late than never' fashion with honors
  5. learned to ride a motorcycle
  6. walked 60 miles in 3 days & worked for a year to raise almost $5,000 for breast cancer research
  7. overcame my fear of flying so I could visit other parts of the world
  8. overcame my fear of climbing inside an MRI machine so I could see inside my broken brain 
  9. have been successfully married for 29+ happy, contented yet occasionally dysfunctional years
  10. i can grill a perfect steak

10 11 failures:

  1. can't make pie dough to save my life, once i wasted 2 lbs of flour trying
  2. can't follow a recipe, bake or cook great food (redemption: see #10 above)
  3. never mastered the art of public speaking, small talk or knowing when to stop talking
  4. have not yet managed to successfully controlled my weight
  5. never learned to swim properly (I could probably save my life but not very gracefully)
  6. took piano lessons for years but never learned to play
  7. received an  'A' in every math class i took but yet math still remains a mystery to me
  8. have never overcome my fear of being alone in the dark
  9. suck at following directions even while i think to myself 'haste makes waste'
  10. logic eludes me, never understood the concept of delayed gratification, struggle with strategic planning and always rush into things
  11. although once a great multi-tasker i now rarely, if ever, finish anything i start 

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29 June 2015

captured memories

Sardis Park 
 (aka: Goose Poop Park)

Sardis Park, Chilliwack, BC, Canada

welcome
to one of my favorite places 
in Canada
i love to go for a walk 
any time of year
around sardis park
in chilliwack, bc

sardis park is just a 
hop, skip & a jump
down the road 
from where
my canadian's live

it's a very small 
little park
and usually 
very peaceful
but
at certain times of the year
hundreds  of Canada Geese 
descend on the pond
and into the park
to have their babies
poop!

ergo - 'goose poop park'

lots of geese
 =
lots of poopy little landmines
scattered everywhere
throughout the park

lots of 
feathers & poop
&
poop & feathers

it's quite a poopy feathered mess 
if you've never been 
up close & personal
with a Canada Goose
they can be
quite intimidating

they are big 
they hiss
and will come after you
if you get too close
and
become very aggressive
if you go near
their babies

but if you give them right.of.way
and watch where
you're stepping
they are quite 
beautiful

(clicking on the pictures will enlarge them)
poop = manure = green grass






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